Monday, 25 June 2007

66th Post

Apparently this is my 66th post. Hmm, feels like it should be significant somehow. Unfortunately nothing is feeling significant at the moment. In fact everything is feeling pretty yuk. My head is all over the place. I can't concentrate, can't think straight, can't focus. I can't decide what OU course to do next (and time is running out to choose), I can't seem to 'create' anything, I've no ideas - I have the occasional idea but it never leads to anything concrete. I feel like I'm running around in circles, not accomplishing anything. I'm all lacking in confidence etc etc etc. Blimey, am I miserable or what? What a moan. Still, perhaps it's more 'honest' to post like this, or maybe it's the sort of thing I should keep to myself? I'm going to post it anyway, if only to remind myself not to be so bloomin' depressing! Ugh!

11 comments:

Deb H said...

Maybe you just need to go outside for a walk. Knock the cobwebs from your mind. Try looking at small details, like a leaf, or bit of tree bark, & let it be your inspiration.

We all get a bit funky sometimes. A little fresh air might help. Good luck.

Alison said...

Hi Susan,
Just to let you know I'm still in blogland and give you my new address!!!!!
Alison x

see-saw said...

I wonder wether the month of June should be banned, I too have felt miserable, I have just finished my degree, wondering what to do next and I want to go into the garden and walk in the countryside but this continual wet weather is driving me nuts. So you are not on your own I bet we could start a misery club right now.
mavisridley@hotmail.com

Susan D said...

I know exactly how you feel. I have days like that where I can't be bothered doing anything and have to force myself to get on with things. I don't think the lousy weather we've been having has helped matters. I'll scream if it rains again, I feel as if I'm going to grown webbed feet.

Angel Jem said...

Hello, fellow blocker. I know soooo much where you are coming from.... I moved furniture and had a darned good think while I did it. Something about all that lugging.... and i suppose if you like fungyshuui I freed up my energies. I don't like fwengshwey so I think I just cleared some crap. And found some stuff I need to use, and saw a gap that needs something in it and got my machine out.....
Good luck with the thinking. If you need a wizard of Oz, I'm here. I'm a very good woman.... just a bad wizard!

Mary said...

abel1947Hi
I did an OU degree too. I felt like that on occasion because its difficult to decide when you only get a glimpse at what the course will be about and very costly in money and time if you make a mistake Choose something you know will be interesting and maybe challenging I did one with maths as part of it and never thought I would pass it. There were tears and much swearing and book throwing and husband cussing as he could do it but I couldnt. The joy when it was over and my results were good FANTASTIC and although I worked fulltime and had 3 children I still managed a 2.1 degree You can do it if I can you can Keep saying that to yourself except you need to say IF MARY CAN I CAN good luck

Janet said...

We all need to be honest and you should write exactly what you feel....afterall it IS your blog. I completely understand the lack of concentration and creativity as I'm going through much the same thing. I often feel as if I'm in limbo. I find myself sitting in my studio....just sitting, not really creating anything and it's frustrating. But I try to keep a positive outlook on it all. One of these days you won't be able to stop me!! I'll be on a creating binge.

Carol said...

Hi Susan,

Perhaps you are trying too hard. A change of scenery is what you need. Take your camera and go somewhere and take lots and lots of photographs - use the macro function to get nice close details. If it's too wet go to a museum or somewhere you always wanted to visit but never have.

It's like losing something - you always find it when you stop looking.

Take care.

Mary said...

hope you are feeling better today Its 12 years since I finished Ou and actually I met so many interesting people when doing it that they inspired me to continue I need that type of encouragement to carry on. What I do know is that anyone who knows about the amount of effort that you have to put in to doing this when you have perhaps been out of education for long periods of time,looking after children and or other family committments and taking to the books computer at 10pm at night when all you want to do is sleep inspires admiration particularly from prospective employers as well as all your friends and family.the sun has peeped out here and i always feel better when its out I hate winter and what I call grey moods which the bad weather brings out in me Lets hope the sun shines on us all soon and lifts all our spirits Mary

Sarah said...

Spooky Minkies - who would have thought that I would post just after ma!!! - I'#ve just done my 66th post too.....

Alis said...

Well don't you just hate it when the muse goes on holiday!
I hate it, and it happens to us all from time to time.
Just go with the flow and kick back. Your muse will come home soon and all will be well.

Hugs, Alis